Allergic

Allergic..


allergic bout something..kalo udah sakit,bingung..
ga usah di obatin aja skalian..
coz diobatin juga malah bengek..malah bengkak matanya..
bingung deh..

kenapa ya..
since december begin..
everythings looks so fine..
everythings feels so nice..
and everybody really caring and luving with me..

I didn't expect any bad happen cum,
but..I really enjoy this time..
when everybody smiles..
I don't want all this funny things end.

I luv u

no jobs.. no money.. hiuehuehheuiheuiheuihe.....

heuiheuhueheih..
ketawa lepas setelah beban kuliah ilang juga dr pundak ini..

sejauh apa siy yang namanya idealisme?
seberapa besar sih yang namanya kemandirian?
apa an siy dengan kata " mapan" ?

wat da screw word !

dead line? date line?

whaaaaaaaaaaaa.... mo date line.. mo dead line.. da same word for me..
tinggal 1 bulan lg waktunya.. kalo gak, bubye haz.. hikz..
2 days ago, my friend just failed.. hmmm.. really scarry for me !!
God.. please give me a better way..
in trust.. I alwayas knew.. U always blessed me..

loka karya?

loka karya?
its been 2 days gw denger kata lokakarya.. sepenting apa siy yg namanya lokarya ampe mesti ga masuk kerja dan merugikan hak orang laen?

udah 3 hari ini, sgala pikiran numbuk jadi satu..ga ngerti mesti di apain..
gw cuma bisa bilang.. " yang sabar hon, ini semua pasti ada jalan keluar yang terbaik yang bisa kita usahain bareng-bareng.., coz whatever..it would be one sentence.. " she is Our beloved Mom"

kenapa siy tiba-tiba harus ada berita buruk itu? gw sendiri sedih banget dan ga tau what shoul I felt?
mungkin musibah ini emang udah di tentukan ama Tuhan? kenapa mesti nimpa ke kita?
sepertinya emang ga ada orang yang mau dapet musibah..
apa semua musibah ini mesti kita ambil hikmah nya juga, padahal buat ngatasin nya juga kita belum nemu jalannya?

Apa rencana Tuhan buat kita selanjutnya?

what a wonderfull dunhill..

knp siy hari ini bikin cape dan membingungkan?
apa krn judul gw yg ditolak?
apa krn kemaren kecapean krn overdoing (just somebody know it..:p) ?
apa krn nothing to do for today?

serba ga jelas sebabnya..
badly thursday deh pokoknya..

hmmm..

so..so.. bgt gw ngerasanya lately.. still bt dgn skripsi yg membingungkan itu..
where's everybody???????????????

4th july..

its been 1 month, Im already at home.. pathetic i think.. but how.. :P
..ya..nothing to do..but too many schedule i have to do..

i felt sucks when everybody ask bout me.. what should i answer that damn question?

its not all about my fucking life... that damn home sweet home.. (coz i dont have any home sweet home)... apa siy yg ada di otak orang itu?? apakah dia pernah memikirkan kehidupan gw? khidupan anak bungsunya yg already damn old?


last nite, I had 2 hours chatting bullshit by phone with my "caca".. sgala kebingungan gw..sgala apa yg gw rasain..
ujung2 nya caca cuma bisa blg.. " lu yg sabar ya.. so many chooses in this fucking life.., and everyone has their own choosen".. damn.. sobat gw pling deket pun ga bisa kasih komentar ama hidup gw ! no body knows how I feel to be seseorang yg tdk di harapkan.. seseorang yang tidak punya harapan....

hahahahaha... that girl bitch caca cuma bilang, " jgn ampe bunuh diri ya, gw masih sayang ama lo"...
dan gw jawab, kalopun iya.. pasti gw tinggalin buat wasiat bra buat lo ca... hahahahha....

ca.. even smalem lu udah denger smua blablabla gw.. tp lo msh inget kan one wish gw..
" gw pengen nikah.."

hmm... after yesterday, i feel so weird..

damn.. i feel so weird.. after I've been trough 3 days before.. :(( what should i feel? honestly.. i really believe him.. whatever he said, its only make his word didn't hurt me.. but, i did.. i really feel dissapointed with what he has done..

yup, anyway.. what should i do? we just gave apologize for each other.. now, we have new day.. new commitment.. i hope, it will be realized naturally....

luv ya..

cheater!!!!

i can't get it.. is it just a paranoid feeling or something...
it was a nitemare, then come truly today.. :(( i really hate, what i feel this way !!
u didn't give me confession.. u just answer with all your guiltyness.. :((

I hate U today !!!!!

damn!

damn..damn..damn..
nothing else I wanna say...
just damn YOU !!!

luv u..

3 days i had see u without smile, finally.. last nite, i saw you laugh.. you laid beside me.., then you laugh..smile.. make a jokes.. hmm.. i miss that things.. :) even your probs still not finish yet, but i still proud of you.. yup.. i can not do more like we expected before, i just give you a pray, may Allah always bless both of us.. I pray to God lastnite, May Allah give you a best way to solve ur probs.. :)

i love u..

dillemma..

its been 3 days, i feel so.. so..in dillemma.. duh.. kayanya gw useless bgt.. cuma bisa doing nothing.. :(( .. duh, bingung....

again..

actually..gw ga pernah minta buat jd mentor.. kerja gw bantuin temen2 baru buat bisa "terbang" dg benar, menyenangkan.. gw ga mikirn target.. gw ga pikirin jam istirahat gw.. tp gw MESTI "available always" ktika mreka butuh "the rite answer"... dan ini kerjaan yg susah susah! (sometimes i fell bored w/ this kind of job) tapi, pendapat orang bedabeda.. ada yg bilang, gw makan gaji buta lah.. ada yg bilang gw nongkrong lah.. tp ini tugassss.. yg mesti gw kerjain secara baik dan benar!!.... tapi.. ya sudahlah.. yg penting i did my besttt...

who am i?

I am just ordinary girl..whose been waiting for the next 4 month to get fired from this office.. ga ngarepin siyy..tp emang gw cuma contract officer yg 4 bln lg kelar.. kalo kt anak2 siyy.. nunggu lulus sekolah bidang speak2 gitu deh.. :)) lg mrintis buat memulai semangat baru buat skripsi..tp anehh.. koq ga nemu2 yaa semangatnya?? ini udah 2 semester, gw cuma bayar spp doank.. tp ga ngajuin judul apapun.. duh. mudah2an ga masuk list yg di-DO.. coz gw masih pengen buat bikin bangga ngokap..besok tgl 22 mesti byr spp lg.. yg pasti ga minta nyokap, coz nyokap udah ga mau tau urusan kuliah gw.. :P

tar sore mo jalan niy kayanya ma ulan.. to get final result, after 5 days with fruits only.. can u imagine, that i can stand with fruit only in 5 d ays? heheheh.. ga ngerti jg.. knp gw bisa kuat yaa.. mungkin dorongan orang2 skitar gw, terutama co gw.. dia ampe ga tega makan depan gw.. duhhh.. kesian kann.. tp gpp, itu bukti dia dukung gw bangett.. nyokap jg dukung gw banget.. tp dia suka lupa, masa kmaren dia masak udang goreng tepung kesukaan gw?? jahat ga siyy.. hehehe.. akhirnya gw cuma pergi ke kmr aja, ngabisin film The Great Alexander.. film kolosal yg ok.. tp ga terlalu suka... masa siyy.. se'great' nya alexander ternyata dia homo??? hehehehe...

tar sore ga ktemu aa, coz dia keluar kota hadirin married temennya.. jadilah tar sore gw pesta besar ma ulan.. iya kan lan.. :)

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iseng.. drpd cuma jd mentor.. kapan lg bisa create blog gw sendiri.. jadilah sekarang gw isi waktu dg buat blog ini.... luamayan lah..